so here's the skinny

1. my internet sucks

2. i've decided to blog about haters today, and since my internet sucks, it'd be a pretty short post.

so i was reading on how taylor swift's songs are about different guys. honestly, i was very surprised. i've always thought of her as this blonde pretty face, with a bratty voice and cat eyes.

but she's more than that.

the complete opposite, actually.

she's soulful, and she's expressive and man, this girl is brave! i've always had a problem of sticking up for myself. usually i'd just blab everything to a close friend (usually over the phone :D) and then let myself get over it. but that takes ages. my last break up took me four years to feel okay again.

yes, we're friends again :D

anyway, after reading the looonggg post on taylor's songs on her new album "speak now", i scrolled down to read the comments. i was expecting to see millions of "ooo's" and "ahhh's" but all i got were... HATER COMMENTS

i mean, not everybody can agree that they enjoy something (or well, in this case someONE) but i feel a little appalled that people could just rudely express their views.

seriously, people, there are nicer words in the english language...

have you no remorse?

i've had haters,

who hasn't?

so here's a little advice

advice that i wish I could follow myself...

don't let haters get you down (oh! so cliche)

you don't have to stand up to them

that would only make things worse.

it would give them fuel to keep saying things.

to keep oppressing you.

BUCK UP

ignore their incessant barking.

they'll keep barking

and you'll keep walking

i was so brought down by what people said about me

i tried with my entire being to please them

that was stupid.

so,

don't please people

who can't ever be pleased with you.

cause you're wasting your time.

these people will keep saying things

about what you do, eat, wear, say.

they'll call you names,

curse at you

slash at you

all behind your back

and then

you're forced to ignore them

but hey,

i think i can safely say

you're not the only one

you're not alone.

take comfort in that

it's very comforting to know

you're not the only one

so hold your head up high

and show these

ATTENTION SEEKERS

that they're messing with the wrong person

show them what you're made of

laugh it off

laugh it all off

words won't kill you

so stop killing yourself inside

over what these

ATTENTION SEEKERS

say

because that's all they are;

liars,

pretenders,

ATTENTION SEEKERS

if i were a sim.

if i were a sim, i'd be

having a blast

enjoying good music

and my happiness bar would actually be quite high.

my mum let me wear her gold ring, it's way too tiny for her and i think it'd be about time to take it off. hahah it fits my finger perfectly! :D kudos!

i'm listening to glee's bohemian rhapsody.

i can't put up any pictures in this post cause i'm using the computer in my college. don't wanna save any unnecessary documents on this com. maybe i'll edit it when i'm home.

there's a Malaysian studies test tomorrow. WHICH SO TOTALLY SUCKS!

four more chapters to look through. man, i'm hoping for good marks.

okok, enough dilly dally.. class starts in twenty minutes. i wanna make the most of my internet time.

and besides, nobody reads this blog anyway...

silence

people are always talking about the "beauty of silence"

yes, i do admit that silence is indeed very soothing but then again, won't we feel lonely after awhile?

with unread comments and cries for help (whether or not on the internet) and quiet lonely walks down unfamiliar halls, silence can seem like the worst thing in the world.

it's like watching the people around you having a blast and then there you are by yourself, beating yourself up for not talking to them. but how can you talk to them? we don't speak the same language. and they're having so much fun while you watch longingly on the sidelines wondering "when was the last time that happened to me?"

and then you're filled with nostalgia and sometimes you laugh to yourself.

BUCK UP.

life is full of hardship and struggle.

find people who can help you.

don't keep everything to yourself,

tell someone about it.

or, y'know, get a blog like me. :)

though nobody would read this.

but there's still hope that one day SOMEBODY will.

but then again, i'm starting to run out of things to blog about.

time

time's a funny thing.

sometimes, it goes by so slowly that you wish you could just spin the hands of the clock to make it go faster.

other times, it goes by so quickly that it leaves you feeling so shaken and well... hollow.

then there's this sucky internet connection that drives me up the wall.

dear non-existent reader,

i've realized that humans need other humans. and humans who need other humans reach out to other humans. but if they don't speak the same language, it's extremely difficult for them to bond. if i had a wish, i'd wish for more wishes. HAHA. and then i'd wish for the ability to speak many languages. then maybe i won't so desperately have to NEED other humans.

ok.. i just went on about what's happened to me in school. but that's childish. blogging about people? PLEASE. i'm not like that.

aaannyyhoo.
i just had papaya. it was one of the best papaya's i've had EVER.


gonna go engulf my lunch now. i'm starving!!!

what you should never say

guy: just try to make new friends there, ok?

girl: it's impossible! they're not opening up to me

guy: there's two things you can do. keep a low profile, or a high profile.

girl: no, i'm gonna keep a MEDIUM profile and just be me. and let anyone who likes me AS MYSELF be my friend.

guy: then that's keeping a low profile

OUCH!

funny thing, it just happened. i swear.

I GOT THE POWAH!!!

now i can change the font size and colour of my posts!!

But it only works in my dad's office... on his computer...

but hey, i've said it before. beggars can't be choosers! and since i might be spending more time there, this is good enough for me!

the whole non coloured, plain posts are kinda growing on me. they bother me less now O.o

how odd...

new

wow. college life is different. being a freshman, i can see that there is a LOT to learn about this place and the students here. i'm going to IE, by the way. and i walked from my school to my dad's office. now i'm on his computer. making a racket with all my typing... OOPS!

anyway. as i was saying. people have very different reactions to my name. my name is LOVELYN. say it.

on every "first day" (of anything) people often mispronounce my name.

• lofflyn



• lo-ve-lyn



• lob-e-line



• love-line (like it's some match-up phone service)



• once, a man called me DOLPHIN...



• and they decided to change my race and call me ROSLYN...

after awhile, they get it. it's love-lyn... two simple syllables. love-- lin.. easy peasy.

sometimes, they just don't get it. a few of my teachers have called me LO-VE-LYN for the entire year. and more.

so today, my lecturer (omigosh, i can't believe i have lecturers instead of teachers now!) pronounced my name flawlessly... love--lyn. perfect.

i was happy, but only for a fraction of a second, because the rest of the class (mostly guys) began to laugh at my name. ouch. they sniggered and shoved at each other. sigh... i wish i weren't a freshman.

the girls fluttered about excitedly in their seats. i like to think that maybe they like my name. i could be wrong. :S

anyway, i'll spare you the details. the facilities and stuff here are excellent. the students, well... i hope i can fit in soon. :)

wish me luck!

all glee-d up

today, (like... right in the middle of typing the previous post) i went jogging with my dad :D and all the while, i was listening to glee. as in songs from season 2. i think glee season 2 is much better than season 1. more drama, more action, more conflicts, better songs!

now i feel:

• all glee-d up
• like jelly
• so tired
• like i'd better UP my stamina, because i seem to lack it. alot
• like i know what the big bad wolf felt like... HUFFING AND PUFFING
• like my feet and legs hate me
• like my lungs and my heart got reacquainted

and here's my to-do list:

(also, by posting it up i'd stand a better chance remembering it...)

• finish tribute post to tiney-poo (i'm working on hand-drawn pictures!)
• go to the dentist on the 15th and pray that they'll be able to take off my braces in time for chinese new year!
• buy stationery for college
• get college schedule
• reload phone
• go to aikido at least once a week
• sell old schoolbooks
• keep checking back to see of blogger lightens up and lets me change font size and colour. i've said that so many times now because it's really bugging me!!!!

letting go

sometimes, i wish i could just make the past disappear. i think it'd be easier if i post up a wishlist.

MY 2011 WISHLIST

1. i wish i could just stop visiting your facebook and find something better to do
2. i wish i had a flatter tummy... yes, world... i've gained a few kilos...
3. i'd like to be able to jog. well, with the lack of stamina i have right now, i'm lucky to even finish the course!
4. i want to be pimple free
5. i want to be more independent.
6. i want to be able to sleep well, even without hearing you say goodnight. just a simple message telling me you're fine would suffice.
7. i want to bulk up on vocabulary. though i've been told that simple english is the way to go
8. i wish that blogger would let me change the colour and font size of my posts... it's really bugging me!!
9. i want to do well in college
10. i want to have the freedom of speech, without being judged.

okay, so ten things that may or may not happen for me this year. we'll have to see. i know i know, it's so dull with the lack of colour, and the monotony of the font size, but hey... it's out of my control! dang blogspot...

i'm typing this in the middle of the post

i hope blogspot lets me do this too

we'll just have to see

when i publish it :S

but hey, what do i care? nobody reads this blog anyway!

oh and by the way

i still can't change the size or colour of my font.

details details

i'm so tired of seeing people read my blog only to get pictures of guys. besides, that post was like... ages ago. which means that everything from then till now has been pretty much ignored. i'd rather have no one read my blog.

so i'm starting a new one. :)

i promised my cousin that i'd write a long heartfelt post dedicated solely to her. and i will. give me time!

i'm working on it in microsoft office :S it has to be perfect.

though i could always just post a second one ;)

why?

i've created this new blog because i'm so pissed off that i can't change my font size or colour in my old blog...

and i wanna see just how many people would read about me.

the old blog got so many views cause of my "eye candy" post. and it doesn't seem to stop. :S

so yeah, welcome to the new blog. new year, new blog. like a new diary.

still, i hope i can change the font size and colour for this one!